Another fear is in the offing........

Just a few months back I wrote a blog regarding my son. It was all about a mother's fear setting her kid off to college life. This blog is cohered to that. Anyway, a few weeks ago, I got word that my son was chosen by the university to apply for the Study Abroad program. He is being geared to study in California for two years. When I got the text from the school I was stupefied, it was like the world was put to a halt. I was speechless for awhile and my mind went blank....

Shortly thereafter, my son texted me telling me the same thing and likewise asked if I would give him the permission to study abroad. So I asked him, if he would like to and he unyieldingly said yes. As soon as I got home, thats when it all sank in. It will still be in a year's time though. However, thinking about how things will be then just gives me the creeps. Tears (again) kept falling. Im still adjusting w/ our current setup, him having to come home once in awhile. There were times that he couldnt come home for 3 weeks due to his busy schedule. And during those times My heart just goes in shambles because I miss him sooo badly. He would often send me a msg that he misses us so much and that he wants to come home, he misses his bed, he misses my cooking, he misses goofing around with us and he simply misses the warmth of his own home. And hearing those from him just breaks my heart. But like he would often say, Mom this is just part of the entire "growing up" thing, so we have to live with it. Yeah I said to myself it IS part of it. Besides, we can always come over to visit. But now that this opportunity came, things will definitely be different. He will be thousands of miles away from us. And this will be for 2 long agonizing years. I wonder how life would be when that time comes. I still have a year to be with him and making the most out of it would somehow be a constraint considering the "few times" we spend together. Oh geez, I pray to God that when that time comes, the Lord Almighty will just equip me with the strength to see him go and be on his own. I have always been clingy when it comes to my kids...who wouldnt be? theyre the only ones ive got!! I sometimes ask is love really this way??? does it always have to be allied with pain??? I know my kids deserve nothing but the best, but giving them the best means tearing your heart into pieces. And they say moms are expected to do everything just to give them the so-called "best"....yeah the struggles of being a mom....I just hope I still have the remains of my heart after all these have passed. The way its been going my heart has been torn countless times but I have no regrets, I dont mind giving until nothing is left of me, just as long as I see the people I love in a better place. Thats the story and thats the glory of love!!!

...USED vs. LOVED

While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up a stone and scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man took the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a
wrench. At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures. When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?' The man was so hurt and speechless;he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times. Devastated by his own actions..... ..sitting in front of that car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.

The next day that man committed suicide. . . Anger and Love have no limits;choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life.....

My thoughts on this story:

Things are to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today's world is that, People are used and things are loved....During this year, let's be careful to keep this thought in mind: Things are to be used, but People are to be loved ... Be yourself.... ..This is the only day we HAVE.

Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions; they become habits. Watch your habits they become character; Watch your character; it becomes your destiny. And we choose our destiny so make your choices right by doing the right thing......ciao!

LET IT GO....I CAN SO RELATE TO THIS ONE

By: T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell
you this!
When people can walk away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another
person into staying with you, loving you, calling you,
caring about you, coming
to see you, staying attached to you.
I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from
you let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody
that left.
The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made
manifest that they were
not for us.
For had they been of us, no doubt they would
have continued with us.
[1 John 2:19]

People leave you because
they are not joined to
you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make
them stay. Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that
they are a bad person it
just means that their part in the story is over. And
you've got to know when
people's part in your story is over so that you
don't keep trying to raise the
dead. You've got to know when it's dead. You've
got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something.
I've got the gift of good-bye.
It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye.
It's not that
I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful,
and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give
it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.
Stop begging people to stay.
Let them go!!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't
belong to you and was never intended for your life, then
you need to......LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to
past hurts and pains......LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat
you right, love you back,
and see your worth.....LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.
LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to
some thoughts of evil and
revenge......LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a
wrong relationship or
addiction......LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a
job that no longer
meets your needs or
talents.....LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad
attitude.......LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others
to make yourself feel
better......LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the
past and God is trying to
take you to a new level in
Him.......LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with
the healing of a broken
relationship........LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help
someone who won't even
try to help themselves.....LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling
depressed and stressed..........LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular
situation that you are so
used to handling yourself and God is saying 'take your
hands off of it,' then you need to.......LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!